I am so sorry you you’re experiencing this. I couldn’t imagine my child harming me, certainly couldn’t imagine being afraid of my son. And while I can’t relate to your situation specifically, I absolutely can identify with doing all the things a mother can do to protect your child, and everything seems hopeless. Nothing works. People look at you as if you’re crazy. Medicating your child is bad for him, but safety for you and your family, and the law protects his rights. The law protects him and not you, in spite of your cries for help. You must do what you need to do to preserve yourself and the other in your household. You should never have to live in a prisoner in your own home. May you come to some peace with your decision. It’s not an easy one, but sometimes you must banish your children to save yourself.
Not many people preach this today. If you wouldn’t allow a stranger to mistreat you, you should not allow your children to do so either.