I thoroughly enjoyed this essay, and it was quite haunting as a reminder of what happens and how I felt after someone I loved suddenly left without me having the chance to say a “proper” goodbye it there is such a thing.
Thank God for friends who don’t listen to us, and for the ones who have the presence of mind to bring healing comfort and company when we don’t have the guts to admit we truly need those things. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful piece. I cried most of the way through it, as I felt every word. It’s been 17 years since the love of my life passed on, but your story made it feel like it was just yesterday. Men accept help, and please don’t be afraid to ask for help. The older you get, the harder it becomes. You’ll eventually find yourself alone, because you pushed everyone away.