I’m glad you’re well. I was wondering about you a few weeks ago. You’re in my thoughts. Recovery is a LIFETIME process. I was in an abusive marriage in my teens and I still have days I’m triggered for a moment. The scars are deep, but there is one thing for certain, nothing he did is your fault.
His monkeys…his circus.
Do the work my love. Get well, heal, take care of your children. Make sure they are in a safe, and love on yourself. You’ll always have questions like how you missed the signs, but no one is trained to look for monsters are they? And people don’t broadcast they have unleashed their terrible monsters into the world to harm others. It’s a terrible reality. Never forget, and never ever dismiss your gut again. You got this. You had that experience, no spend your life ensuring you and the children never endure another one.
I’m happy for your new beginning! Take care.