Oh. My. God.
I’m so grateful for Gwen for picking up on your spirit and giving you a fresh start. I have a friend in NY, she is my partner’s best friend, who has had two kidney transplants, has kidney disease and is an advocate for persons with kidney issues. She does treatments at home and it really alters her life. She is saddened and has attempted suicide several times too.
Your stories sound alike. It’s hard to reach her sometimes. Her life and struggles are overwhelming. She blocks us out. Man I had no clue what you were going through. They have a Facebook group and a national network if you’re interested. I have no idea what living in your shoes is like, but I am sure my friend Dawn could hook you up with supports and a tribe who knows what you’re going through. She lives in NY and we send for her to come here annually. It’s a big production…but anything for our friend to help her escape her troubles. Sometimes she is lonely for companionship. Due to all the kidney issues, dialysis, and her bag…she feels no one will love and accept her. Like you, she has scars. External and internal. She just turned 50 last year. She has been dealing with this since her 20’s.
There is hope.
B (I love giving people nicknames so I hope you don’t mind-- that’s love), Talk to us. Let us know how we can help you. You have a voice that needs to be heard. And you are teaching us about things we have never experienced. I love you my friend and would miss you if you were to leave. I hope we get to meet in person. If you’re taking on new family members I want to be your auntie lol. I love ya B. You’re a special person. I just know it!
Hang in there. What do you need? How can I help?