…the police eye contact or as much as you're welcome or thank you when they hand me their paperwork. It’s simply because if I wasn't behind this glass or have this badge on they would look at me or my children like we are less than human, plus that BLUE LIVES MATTER is BS to me mainly because you can take that uniform off, I can't take off my skin color, or you know change job occupations if you don't like the job. The fact that my son’s rugby coach looks at me like I’m some type of simple person, especially after…
So many of these things on your list I can identify and agree with understandably.
I don’t know how I left off the White lady tears, but I’ve called those out a few times so I’m not the one to beat a specific too many times, too close together.
All Black people know the routine. We have a common obstacle and harasser. I absolutely get why don’t you can’t be kind to uniforms. I have had one or two bad experiences in a small town back home, but my sons. Oh my God they have been harassed so much by police since middle school it’s really difficult to imagine what life is like for them. I fear for them both, and my grandsons.
My partner (Black) is retired federal law enforcement and let me tell you ….we can’t even talk about the police without me turning into Malcolm X/Tupac and she turning into the Master’s tool making excuses for America’s policing and criminal justice systems. Once you see the entire system and the people who run it, you can’t unsee it. It’s hard to have respect for much of anything or anyone in support of it as well. We all need jobs but dang, you don’t have to beat up, bully, or kill people because you have the power and because you’re White (although there are plenty of bad Black and Brown brethren in uniform). You also don’t have to believe in their corrupt missions, like the war on drugs.
The only reason we’re probably still together is because she’s retired and at the tail end of her career when we met, she was polygraphing corrupt law enforcement globally (another story) and demand reduction (telling kiddos to stay clean in schools). Those are worthy endeavors.
If we’re not willing and able to speak the truth and keep it real about people in these systems, we’ve become a tool for it. Refusing to be a tool takes a lot of courage. So does identifying and avoiding dangers. We must continue to be vigilant of all the various ways White people work to maintain White Supremacy and discuss it. It’s often subtle. Nice racism. That kind is the worst.