Thank you so much for your thoughts and for reading my essay. Please allow me to extend my condolences to you for being put in such a difficult situation. Self-preservation is more important than anything in the world for me. After enduring a terrible childhood, we must do what we can to salvage the rest of our lives. Trust me, I know what you’re experiencing and I have no shame in saying save yourself.

My grandma’s funeral felt so strange. No one was sad. Very few people cried, to include her children. I had no emotion whatsoever. Surprisingly, my father had anger about how his mother left her affairs, dying making him a villain.

I learned this weekend death will reveal your life. I’m trying to make sure I do little harm to avoid the funeral my grandma received.