This really resonates with me. I’m Black, in the middle-class, and you can always see the White wheels turning as if to ask how did I make it into their space. It’s very lonely. I’m thankful I didn’t grow up in this space, so I know where to go when I need some Black love, TLC and fellowship. When you talk about the unwelcome feeling and all the microaggressions that come along with being in White spaces not meant for us, it hits home. I tried to talk about the physical experiences in White spaces in a piece I wrote and boy, let’s say I got lots of resistance. lol
We may suffer in silence, but know you are not alone. Isolation is not good for us. Find a small Black tribe, and take care. It’s lonely out here, and we weren’t meant to be alone. Sending you my best!